Friday, February 8, 2013
Wow, it's been a year!
Sunday, February 26, 2012
A letter to my Annie
Dear Annie,
It's been such a long time since I've written a letter to you. I thought that by writing a letter to you when I put your things in a box, I'd be done. I can't be done, there's so much to tell you.
Life has continued and I feel your presence every day. Sometimes if I close my eyes I can feel you right next to me. I know you've never left me. Sometimes I can see you in another child. If I see a curly-headed toddler, I can see you and I wonder who you'd be. Would you be saying "mommy?" Would you try to pick flowers for me? Would you love me?
My darling, I miss you all the time. I have this ache in my heart that won't go away. I re-read Heaven is For Real this weekend and it spoke to me. When that little boy went to heaven, he met his sister that he never knew he had. He talked about all the wonderful and magnificent things that are in heaven and I pray that you are having fun. I pray that you are happy.
We are trying to add on to our little family and it's not working so far. We want you to have a brother or a sister, or maybe even both! It does get frustrating, but I need to remember to have child-like faith. I need to believe that nothing is impossible. It's just hard sometimes when something so precious is taken away.
Annie girl, we talk about you... sometimes I get sad and other times I'm happy. I remember so many good things, like when I heard your heart beat swooshing away during the ultrasound for the first time. I remember reading in the baby book and learning you could hear me! Do you remember me reading "Goodnight Moon" to you? Do you remember me telling you how much I love you? I do, Annie girl. I love you very much.
Be a good little girl. Give lots of hugs and think of us often. I know we'll meet again, someday.
XOXO,
Mama
It's been such a long time since I've written a letter to you. I thought that by writing a letter to you when I put your things in a box, I'd be done. I can't be done, there's so much to tell you.
Life has continued and I feel your presence every day. Sometimes if I close my eyes I can feel you right next to me. I know you've never left me. Sometimes I can see you in another child. If I see a curly-headed toddler, I can see you and I wonder who you'd be. Would you be saying "mommy?" Would you try to pick flowers for me? Would you love me?
My darling, I miss you all the time. I have this ache in my heart that won't go away. I re-read Heaven is For Real this weekend and it spoke to me. When that little boy went to heaven, he met his sister that he never knew he had. He talked about all the wonderful and magnificent things that are in heaven and I pray that you are having fun. I pray that you are happy.
We are trying to add on to our little family and it's not working so far. We want you to have a brother or a sister, or maybe even both! It does get frustrating, but I need to remember to have child-like faith. I need to believe that nothing is impossible. It's just hard sometimes when something so precious is taken away.
Annie girl, we talk about you... sometimes I get sad and other times I'm happy. I remember so many good things, like when I heard your heart beat swooshing away during the ultrasound for the first time. I remember reading in the baby book and learning you could hear me! Do you remember me reading "Goodnight Moon" to you? Do you remember me telling you how much I love you? I do, Annie girl. I love you very much.
Be a good little girl. Give lots of hugs and think of us often. I know we'll meet again, someday.
XOXO,
Mama
Monday, February 20, 2012
Worked through a "snow day"
Even though today was a snow day, the teachers had to go to work. We have to make up this "snow day" in March. I say "snow day" in quotation marks because it was 40 degrees and sunny by about 9:00 in the morning. Coming from winters in upstate NY, my brain is saying, "Come onnn!"
After work, I went and got our taxes done. Yippee! Now here's the question of the hour, why does that tax prep place say, "free federal tax returns" and then charge me a whopping $300 to file?? Next year, I'll definitely do our own.
This coming week, my kiddos are doing their benchmark testing, so say a prayer for them. It's got to be tough having to sit through a 3 hour test at 8 years old. Poor babies...
Psalm 18:2 "The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the hornof my salvation, my stronghold."
After work, I went and got our taxes done. Yippee! Now here's the question of the hour, why does that tax prep place say, "free federal tax returns" and then charge me a whopping $300 to file?? Next year, I'll definitely do our own.
This coming week, my kiddos are doing their benchmark testing, so say a prayer for them. It's got to be tough having to sit through a 3 hour test at 8 years old. Poor babies...
Psalm 18:2 "The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the hornof my salvation, my stronghold."
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Preparation for an ice storm
I wouldn't mind a day home with my hubby tomorrow... ;)
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."
Saturday, February 18, 2012
"Hope for what we do not have..."
"But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently."
Romans 8:25 (NIV)
Yes, I hope. I pray. I wish. Daily I do these things until we get there. Sometimes it's difficult for us to remain hopeful. There was a sermon last week that we heard and the pastor asked if we can find TRUE joy in the happiness of others. Oh, Lord, how did you know I needed to hear that. I try to smile when inside I hurt for myself.
"God has a plan." Well, yes He does. Thank you for pointing that out to me, as if I didn't know that already. It's just hard sometimes to know we are waiting and waiting and some don't have to wait at all.
We remain hopeful, faithful and loved until it's our time to celebrate as a family. It will happen, we just have to pray.
Romans 8:25 (NIV)
Yes, I hope. I pray. I wish. Daily I do these things until we get there. Sometimes it's difficult for us to remain hopeful. There was a sermon last week that we heard and the pastor asked if we can find TRUE joy in the happiness of others. Oh, Lord, how did you know I needed to hear that. I try to smile when inside I hurt for myself.
"God has a plan." Well, yes He does. Thank you for pointing that out to me, as if I didn't know that already. It's just hard sometimes to know we are waiting and waiting and some don't have to wait at all.
We remain hopeful, faithful and loved until it's our time to celebrate as a family. It will happen, we just have to pray.
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